I read a book by Alessandro Baricco, it's called "Ocean Sea". I read it in 2002 for the first time. I was a very young adolescent with a lot of hang-ups. I was in love with my best friend and I suffered because my love wasn't returned. He lent me this book and I read and I remember I loved every page of it. 

Then life goes on. 

I had a 6-year-relationship with another guy. He didn't like Alessandro Baricco, so I've never read anything anymore by him.

We broke up and I bought my book copy ten years later. I still love it.

I think that there is a way to live things you have to live. It's only a question of timing.

“…how it would be nice if, for every sea waiting for us, there would be a river, for us. 
And someone -a father, a lover, someone- able to take us by the hand and find that river -imagine it, invent it- and put us on its stream, with the lightness of one only word, goodbye. This, really, would be wonderful. It would be sweet, life, every life. And things wouldn’t hurt, but they would get near taken by stream, one could first shave and then touch them and only finally be touched. Be wounded, also. Die because of them. Doesn’t matter. But everything would be, finally, human. It would be enough someone’s fancy -a father, a lover, someone- could invent a way, here in the middle of the silence, in this land which don’t wanna talk. Clement way, and beautiful.
A way from here to the sea.”  (Ocean Sea, A.Baricco)

It's so white this blogger page. I should start from somewhere, somewhat, somewho. For more than two years I had The Holsteen Manifesto on my wall. I left my room, my house, my place, my country and far from them I began living what it's written in.

 

Frustrating things to do after a master's degree: #1 writing an English cv :(

There was a too long series of misfortunes during the last week and I've had enough, I hope it's over.
Finally I realized I also lost my Peanuts Moleskine organizer, I'm really sad. I feel really uncertain about my thesis, literally abandoned by my professor. Why does it have to be always so hard? I would like to sleep until April, I have bellyache continually and now I'm also without my organizer :( I'm really really tired.

They call it tragedy. I call it human responsibility. Yep, I'm talking about Costa Concordia Cruise. I am from the same little place where Schettino from. Here there's a kind of unwritten code; women don't speak any word and men defend their commander, but I think they defend the life they wanna have (of course before the accident). Sincerely I think people of my place have a very closed mind and nothing can change that.
What about my thesis? I received my corrections and a lot of things to do. I study and write and study again and I can't see an end.
Above all I have the temptation to delete everything because I know I can do better. There's no time...

So I sent my thesis v.1.0 to my professor 5 minutes ago and I have to wait for correction and perhaps (for the goodness' sake NO!) re-writing everything. A part of me wants to end and looks for a job, another part is afraid of future, unemployment and wants to keep on studying economics...think positive!
Yesterday my boyfriend, my sister, her boyfriend and I watched "The Beauty and the Beast". My sister and I grew up with this film and we loved it so much. I can't explain the magic, maybe the music, maybe the love story... thousands of little girls wanted to be like Belle in 1991 and I think today is the same. This is one of my favourite Disney's animated musical-fantasy films.

Tonight it was hard staying awake and not falling asleep at 23.30. My sister and I watched circus performers on tv, in Montecarlo with the Price Alberto and his wife seems-to-be emotionless Charleen. My sister failed to uncap a spumante bottle at 0.00 to celebrate new year...that was so funny, my mother and my grandma were spleeping and they woke up just in time. Our holiday are always the same and I like this kind of tradition, I know that this could be the last one, who knows where i'll be next year?!
It' s important be with people you love, not only the first day, of course!
Be 2012 full of love, hope, success, health and time to dedicate to yourself.