We're all seeking that special person who is right for us. But if you've been through enough relationships, you begin to suspect there's no right person, just different flavors of wrong. Why is this? Because you yourself are wrong in some way, and you seek out partners who are wrong in some complementary way. But it takes a lot of living to grow fully into your own wrongness. And it isn't until you finally run up against your deepest demons, your unsolvable problems--the ones that make you truly who you are--that we're ready to find a lifelong mate. Only then do you finally know what you're looking for. You're looking for the wrong person. But not just any wrong person: the right wrong person--someone you lovingly gaze upon and think, "This is the problem I want to have."

Andrew Boyd (daily afflictions)

This is the problem I want to have.

Today two people, who don't know each other, said me that I'm wise. Two other people ask me to date. The more I push away this kind of things, the more they enter into my life. I can't deal with this stuff. I'm just thinking next exams and the life I hope I'll live starting from July.

"Ci telefoniamo perché solo nel chiamarci a lunga distanza, in questo cercarci a tentoni attraverso cavi di rame sepolti, relais ingarbugliati, vorticare di spazzole di selettori intasati, in questo scandagliare il silenzio e attendere il ritorno di un’ eco, si perpetua il primo richiamo della lontananza, il grido di quando la prima grande crepa della deriva dei continenti s’è aperta sotto i piedi d’una coppia di esseri umani e gli abissi dell’oceano si sono spalancati a separarli mentre l’uno su una riva e l’altra sull’altra trascinati precipitosamente lontano cercavano col loro grido di tendere un ponte sonoro che ancora li tenesse insieme e che si faceva sempre più flebile finché il rombo delle onde non lo travolgeva senza speranza. Da allora la distanza è l’ordito che regge la trama d’ogni storia d’amore come d’ogni rapporto tra viventi, la distanza che gli uccelli cercano di colmare lanciando nell’aria del mattino le arcate sottili dei loro gorgheggi, così come noi lanciando nelle nervature della terra sventagliate d’impulsi elettrici traducibili in comandi per i sistemi a relais: solo modo che resta agli esseri umani di sapere che si stanno chiamando per il bisogno di chiamarsi e basta."

Italo Calvino, “Prima che tu dica “Pronto”.

Stanotte ho sognato che mi cadeva il dente del giudizio dell'arcata superiore. Io i denti del giudizio  li ho solo sopra, non giù. Quelli giù non cresceranno mai, semplicemente non esistono.

Ho sognato che me ne cadeva uno, ma si era disintegrato in tantissimi pezzetti e li tenevo nella mano destra e pensavo che, accidenti, quanti pezzi formano questo dente! Mi sono svegliata metereopatica, che significa pessima giornata. Tuttavia, per tutto il tempo ho avuto in testa questa canzone: 

I don't believe horoscopes, it's quite unlikely that stars can influence our life. Life is totally unpredictable. But the following one is by Rob Brezsny and I'm always astonished by his ability to "see" things in my life. Maybe all lives are more or less equal. By the way, within 5 months I'll finish  my tough master. Unbelievable.

"I bet that in the next five months you will be obliged to carry more responsibility than you have in the past. You will find it hard to get away with being lazy or careless. I suspect that during this time you will also have the privilege of wielding more influence. The effect you have on people will be more pronounced and enduring. In short, Virgo, your workload will be greater than usual -- and so will your rewards. To the degree that you serve the greater good, you will be a major player. As for next few weeks, you should concentrate on the work and service and responsibility part of this equation."

How deep can be the grief? It's up to what we are or to what happens to us? You are the person that your drops have built, you can turn your pain into experience. Maybe the answer is really to look for  Beauty in the world. And the more things get complicated, the more you became stronger and better to find goodness. Goodness in the sense of things that can make you say "ok, everything's gonna be ok". Suffering is not desirable, but sometimes is a blessing and makes us better people.

"Life is too short to wake up in the morning with regrets. So love the people who treat you right, forget about the ones who don't and believe that everything happens for a reason. If you get a chance, take it. If it changes your life, let it. Nobody said it'd be easy, they just promised it would be worth it."

Just thinking about what really matters in life. You can try to escape from who you are, but you'll never run so fast and then your fate will catch you. So why keep on running away? you may just stop and accept yourself, without any waste of time.